Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
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1:43 pm
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Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
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1:12 pm
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i figure its a good time to come back to this journal. as my world falls apart around me and i have to keep some secrets, i need a decent place to put them. here will work for now. i have fallen in love with someone else and i cant seem to figure out what to do about that. i never wanted to be this kind of person. i thought id be happy with you. with you forever. but you didnt want that. it was good until you started to get intolerable. almost on purpose. until all you do is yell and hurt me inside and then finally you did on the outside. i hate you and i love you too. that makes it harder. i dont know where to go. i dont know what to do. i sit here in limbo. can i go back and things can be fixed? i dont think so. can i move forward? it seems i am to afraid to do so. i hate this. i just cant seem to get it right. what ever right is.
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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
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8:34 pm
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i wish that i was happier. i think i wish for it so hard that it cancels out something and so i dont get to have it happen.
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Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
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9:57 pm
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Monday, December 6th, 2004
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10:30 am
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Thursday, October 7th, 2004
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10:37 am
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i got tickets for the pixies...and psychic tv! i can hardly wait. both are going to be so much fun! ive been waiting to see ptv forever.... :) only thing that sucks is that i have to go to chicago. i hate doing all the diving and getting lsot and shit. thats no fun. oh well.
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Wednesday, September 29th, 2004
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11:05 pm
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Saturday, September 25th, 2004
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2:31 am
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i hate the fact that i can never seem to fall asleep. i mean id love to be alseep right now but it just wont happen. i want sweet dreams that make me feel better.
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Monday, August 30th, 2004
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1:01 pm
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Friday, August 20th, 2004
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6:36 pm
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i am having a seriously shitty day. why do people hurt the ones they "love"? i mean i know i do it sometimes but i dont do it all the time. im getting pretty sick of being treated like shit. i deserve better and im about to go out and find it. speaking of going out, i plan to tonight and i hope that it is a wonderful evening.
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Thursday, August 12th, 2004
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11:59 am
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Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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6:09 pm
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im having one of those days where i hate myself. id like to think that im feeling better overall but i guess today im not. i hate pretending things are alright, when theyre not. every time i open my big mouth, i mess something up. i hate having friends who are petty and are stupid over the littlest of things. i try and tell them but how do you not comprimse yourself or hurt them? it just doesnt happen. so maybe friends are overrated and im perfectly happy with myself. i dont know.
current mood:  discontent
current music: the cure-prayers for rain
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004
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12:19 am
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Thursday, July 8th, 2004
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11:13 pm
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Saturday, July 3rd, 2004
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10:33 am
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i hate how hot it is. its not even good hot. i hate busting a sweat by just sitting. if it would rain today, it wouldnt be so bad. im tempted to just sit around in my undies all day.
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Friday, January 2nd, 2004
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11:42 pm
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Saturday, November 8th, 2003
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6:26 pm
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this week has just been horrible. i think that tonight i need to get out. or else. oh and fuck you to everyone (my friends included) going to pigface without me. i love you all too.
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Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
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1:28 am
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hmmmm...halloween turned out to be a bit depressing but oh well. id rather not dwell on it. the rest of the weekend was about as dull as dull gets. and so was today. its getting to cold for me already. and besides that its been raining all weekend and all day and oh yeah, it will tom as well, i suppose. yuck.
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Wednesday, October 29th, 2003
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10:28 pm
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i cant wait for friday. i cant wait to get dressed up and go out. i hope its a grrrreat night.
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3:10 am
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